Recently things haven't been the greatest. My apartment got broken into and that person went through my personal journals. Shortly there after I was admitted in to the hospital for heart attack and stroke like symptoms. Not to mention starting a new job that requires a shit ton of memorization. Although I like my job, when the pressure is on it's fucking on. I also lost a few people in the process. People are like clothing, easily shed but the classics are always in style.
I was sitting and having a late lunch with my best friend which is always a special treat. She's the Dr. John Watson to my Sherlock Holmes (<-- BBC version a thank you). We share our tears whether it is out of laughter or pain it's a always a pleasure. We've both been encountering some pretty heavy stuff. She brought to my attention that Oprah that some ideas on how to elevate depression and cope with various issues. The first thing I could think of "That talk show chick? With the always sunny side of thing kinda gal? Ring Ring that's reality calling. Will you expect the charges?" She gives me the knowing look and tells me that she knows it sounds corny but she's going to roll with it.
She launches into something she dubs "The gratitude journal." She said it helped her to see some light at the end of the tunnel. I was happy that it was useful for her but I figured all I had to be thankful is the golden horse shoe in my ass that keeps me out of trouble.
However, after the last week things were looking good. I was freed of any restriction having to do with my heart, my work was going well but I couldn't help but to feel really depressed. I took the weekend off hoping to get the chance to see Mr. Big and give him a wonderful gift but unfortunately it wasn't in the cards. I was really down, hurt and just wanted to lay in bed and mope around. I couldn't shake it. Still kinda can't but I started keeping track of things I was thankful for beside the typical roof over my head, food and clean drinking water. So I figured, let blog this shit. So without further a due the first gratitude list. Pardon the flaws in the vid, I'm still getting used to this software.
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