So much has happened since I last talked to you. Or rather a
lack of something. I had been waiting on a job offer I had been very lucky in
the sense that I am blessed with great people. My land lord for one, my current
boyfriend’s mother (good old fashion pep talk goes miles), my ex, a great
support group of friends, and my mom. I’ve
been sick and truly depressed. A special
person has helped keep me on the level by the nick name of Dr. Pretorius. Thank god for small blessings.
The truth is I’m a wee bit lost on the road map to life and
people have been more than understanding. It helps. So going down the list of
what happened to me over the last time I posted. Went to countless interviews, posted my resume
on site, surfed craigslist, I’m even in a temping company. So for a while (a lot longer than while) for me
come up with another assignment and recently have been found employment through
the company and I am currently a “Laboratory sanitation technician.” It’s fancy
title for one who wash dishes but then again I am getting a head of myself.
During this time off I tore through the rewrites for my novel to put it in my
rear view and start moving forward to move forward in my reading. Despite my
once urgent efforts to get published through a reputable publishing house (and
therefore gain a contract) it has yet have materialized.
It’s not that I have given up chasing my dream of being a
writer. No, I’ve decided to self-publish my novel through amazon. Is this the
world wide success of a New York best seller list? Possibly not. But if one
person, just one person purchases my novel then to me I can consider myself a
successful in my writing career. Because I got paid for my work, even if I only
get a penny. But there is another reason as well. The book ,though fiction, has
many of my own demons in it. I put the devil in the details to exorcise my pain
and free myself from the pain and acrid memories.
I poured every ounce I could into it but over the last two
years I put the book away. Lost my fever and pushed it away. Maybe, I was
trying to hold on to things I wanted so desperately need to let go of. So, I figured that amazon’s create space would
be a perfect venue for my novel. I’m letting
it go. I have another project in the works that I want to publish called “Duly
noted.” It’s a collection of blogs, poetry and my thoughts about all my life.
Things I have done and I’m going to sketch up cartoons with it. Then I am publish
it in Amazon. I’ve led an interesting life and I get a weird laugh out of
myself, why shouldn’t everyone else?
The future is brightening up and I know good things are
going to happen to me . So much so it will even start happening from the second
I post this. So consider this a random
post.
This is the face of the author who is going to make a top ten list!
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